Nikki Hollett

My Story

Birth as our Sacred Blueprint

My interest in birth work began when I first met my husband at 20 years old. He had asked me what I wanted to do with my life and I declared, "I want to be a Midwife." It kind of shook me. Where did that come from?

I did some basic research and was put off by the Medicalization of Midwifery care. I pivoted towards a different path, and spent the next 15 years as an Artist, working in mediums such as Silversmithing, Photography, and Fibre Arts.

When I was living in the mountains of Nelson, training to be a Silversmith, I had a spiritual awakening. It was an underworld journey as well as a light body activation, seemingly all at the same time. During this season I questioned my sanity more then once, and if it wasn't for the Elder who was our landlord, who lived about our little basement suite, I may have become untethered all together.

During this awakening, I began the journey of leaving Maidenhood, into Motherhood. The spirit of my daughter pushing me hard and fast towards opening to her.

We returned from the mountains to the coast, which was our home, and began planning to welcome her. I dove deep into Fertility Awareness Method, and conceived her easily. The process of learning about the physiology of conception opened me even deeper to the energies moving through me. A deep anger bubbled up that I had not been shown the magic that is the womans body.

During pregnancy, we worked with the most reputable and experienced midwifes in our community. I felt privileged to have access to this sort of care. We planned for a home birth and I prepared by watching The Business of Being Born, and read Ina May Gaskin. I felt equal parts terrified and empowered.

The day or our daughters birth came and I went deep into the underworld. 16 hours of active labour at home which eventually lead to a hospital transfer, drugs, and a hectic birth as her heat rate dropped and her shoulder got stuck. In the end she came out responsive and healthy, despite me feeling this huge fear that she was in danger.

The trauma of birth and being a young mom without any community made the first year of motherhood lonely and painful at moments. Im forever grateful my daughter was such an easy and joyful baby and toddler. She was surely the medicine for my aching heart. When I got pregnant again, I was confident the next birth would be easier. So to find out at the end of term that she was in the Breech position, shattered all the plans we had for this second birth. I started asking questions about alternative options and was shocked at the answers I received. In the end we opted for a Version, where an OB manually tries to shift the babies position from outside the womb. And in the end she did turn, the OB stating that hers was the easiest version she had preformed. Ok, homebirth back on! Wrong.... On our first home visit, a few days later, our midwife notes that my Fundal height hadn't changed and she wanted to rule out any concerns by doing an ultrasound and NST. 2 weeks of ultrasounds and NST and the OB declares our daughter is growth restricted, likely only 5 pounds, and recommends an induction and hospital birth.

And in the end, much like my first birth, I ended up at the hospital, with drugs. But unlike my first birth, my second labour was strong and quick and was born without any interventions, weighing 2 pounds above the estimated weight by ultrasound, so very much NOT growth restricted. .

In the early years of motherhood, I felt called to train as a Doula, but did not feel like it would serve the balance of Motherhood I was so deeply committed too. As my girls got older and I began pursuing Photography, I felt like this would be the perfect blend of my two passions. My girls were beginning to approach school age and I could feel the shift towards a life that existed outside of the home.

Yet for reasons I did not see, I was pulled away from working in Birth once again. I spent the next 7 years exploring photography, spiritual practices, matriarchal wisdom lineages, and healing deep wounds within my feminine, both personally, ancestrally, and collectively.

And then in 2023, I heard the call.

The call that I first heard 15 years ago, then 7 years ago, and now once again.

I was ready.

So I began an Intentional Devotional Path with the Womb.

And this is where she has guided me to today.

I am blessed she has brought me to great teachers in the lineage of Spiritual Midwives, like

Whapio Bartlett & Indie Birth.

I am committed to my devotional path of embodied wisdom of the feminine, and how it is essential we remember this as we are birthing a new era.

"Be on guard so that no one deceives you by saying 'Look over here!' or 'Look over there!' For the child of humanity exists within you. Follow it! Those who search for it will find it."

The Gospel of Mary

The initiation into motherhood is a blueprint for our future, our daughters, our granddaughters.

How are you meeting this initiation?
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My Initiation into
Motherhood and The Sacred Feminine

The Womb & The Rose

My womb Healing journey began in 2021 when I began to notice shifts in my menstrual cycle. I was already on a devoted spiritual quest. that was strongly logical and mental. I was consuming many books and concepts in order to understand myself more. I learned systems like Human Design and Gene Keys in those days. They opened up higher spiritual realms that was easy for me to explore within.

I have never had a problem with thinking, its a gift I have. I follow threads of energy and consciousness very quickly, and my spiritual intuition is strong. But as I floated farther away from my body on these spiritual quests, I started to notice my body speaking to me. My menstrual cycles became shorter and shorter. And in shamanic journeys, that I was beginning to explore with an experienced practitioner, I would often have visions of hemorrhaging large amounts of blood. Every time I journeyed, I was given bits and pieces of wisdom about what was happening in my womb.

So my spiritual pursuits pivoted to the body, the blood, and the womb. I began sitting and talking with my ancestors, doing blood rituals each month, and consciously listening to my wombs voice. She started giving me stronger messages though my body and my embodied intuition became even stronger.

As I trusted my womb more, I began to allow life to unfold more freely. Anxiety and control issues softened, and I was able to observe the flow of energy between myself and the world around me in a deeply profound way.

I allowed my womb to guide me to other teachers where I learned more about the Blood Mysteries of the Feminine, which has been protected by many cultures.

At this point, sometime in 2022, the Lineage of the Rose appeared to me. It began with a strong connection with Mother Mary, then Mary Magdalene, and other long suppressed Female Prophets, Oracles, and Healers.

My Spiritual Guides are

the Womb that all originates from. The Cosmic Womb. The Great Void. The Cauldron of Creation

My own womb, who has gifted me two daughters, and many threads of wisdom.

The Oracles & Prophetesses of my Blood Lineage Both Hebrew & European

The Dream world, and her many threads that connect us all.

The Owl and The Bear and The Serpent.

Rose and Rosemary

My Mother

She.